For the first eight years or so of my ministry, I managed to teach, lead, and serve without ever really flexing my heart muscle. I did it all with wit, fancy foot work, and things I had learned from one of the greatest pastors who ever lived.
I knew what a good sermon was and I could preach one; but it was all head, no heart. Most of these sure-fire, get a response sermons, were not my own. They came from others who I had read after or listened to.
I counseled many people and even helped a few. But I was shooting from the hip and never able to truly empathize. The person on the couch got some good one-liners and Hallmark card quotes, but again, there was no passion.
Melanie would often ask me, “Scott, are you happy? Are you challenged? Do you enjoy doing what you’re doing?” I don’t actually recall my response to her questions, but on the inside the answer was a definite “no.” Passion is like oil to an engine, without it you are headed for burn out.
It wasn’t until I went through an incredible breaking process in God’s hands, that I finally found passion in my ministry. The disconnect from heart to head was fixed when I was broken. By the way, I’m thankful my breaking took place in God’s hands. Matthew 21:44 tells us that we can either fall upon the stone and be broken, or the stone will fall on us and grind us to powder.
This actually brings up another thing I wish I had known when I first launched into ministry — God ministers best out of the broken places. My ministry was made and solidified through my brokenness.
People aren’t looking for someone who’s got “it” all together; and besides that, you don’t! So be real. Let people see God as He leaks through the cracks in your life.
Once I connected my heart with my ministry, sermons were no longer just great thoughts captured on tape or written down during a conference, but there was a flow out of the broken places in my heart. It was no longer head knowledge, but heart knowledge that was coming from the pulpit. People could feel the difference and lives were touched.
I remember looking at some of the people I had previously counseled and thinking I should go and apologize to them for the lame — all head, no heart — counsel I had given them. I had lived such a sheltered life I really didn’t know pain, nor did I know how to feel with others. One of the things that makes our Savior so wonderful is that He is a high-priest who can be touched by what touches us.
Let me encourage you, if you have broken places in your life, stop trying to hide the cracks. People don’t need any more fakes or facades…they need to see leadership that does not put on airs of perfection but that of humanity and humility.
Find your passion! Fall upon the stone and be broken in God’s presence. Ask God to move you with what moves Him. As the song says, “break my heart for what breaks Yours.”
Here’s a few passion observations I’d like to leave you with:
- The difference between a good leader and a great leader is passion.
- A passionate leader with a few skills will out-perform the passive leader with many skills.
- Passionate leaders move their team beyond problems and into opportunity.
- You can never lead something you don’t passionately care about.
- You can never start a fire in your organization unless it is first burning in you.
- When you are passionate about what you are doing, perseverance and commitment come with the territory.
- Passion turns your have-to’s into want-to’s. Your chores will become challenges.
- With passion, you enjoy the climb as much as reaching the summit.
- A person with passion never needs a jump start.
- A passionate person does not have to push himself to start, he has to force himself to stop
Comment:
Yang dikatakan di atas itu benar sekali, kita membutuhkan passion dalam mengikut Tuhan terutama dalam melayani Dia. Sekali kita membiarkan passion itu hilang, maka yang ada hanya kelesuan, kehampaan, rutinitas dan pelayanan akan terasa sebagai beban yang luar biasa bukan lagi sebagai suatu kehormatan. Sungguh disayangkan, sekarang ini banyak saya melihat anak-anak Tuhan sudah kehilangan passion tersebut.
Bagaimana menemukan kembali passion tersebut? Dalam Wahyu 2:4-5 dikatakan bahwa kita telah MENINGGALKAN kasih mula-mula tersebut. Dan Tuhan memerintahkan untuk kita MELAKUKAN LAGI apa yg dulu kita lakukan. Sering saya dengar, anak Tuhan berdoa kira-kira seperti ini "Tuhan berikan kami hati yang mengasihi jiwa-jiwa lagi". Doanya keliatan sangat baik dan mulia tetapi ini tidak sesuai dengan Firman Tuhan, bahasa kerennya tidak alkitabiah. Tuhan memerintahkan kita untuk melakukan "TINDAKAN" kasih bukan meminta "Perasaan (passion)" kasih. Saya percaya kita kita melakukan tindakan kasih maka perasaan(passion) tersebut akan mengikuti. God Bless You :)